The Last Semester Break
It feels like my whole life has reached its final destination. I'm lost with the numerous blurred path of future which no one has stepped upon. Deciding on a future is hard, choosing what course to go to for my degree is tougher. Having to predict which field of work will fit the best in the economy 5-6 years into the future is so frustrating and worrying. Every time I look out of my window, I see joggers around the neighbourhood, park connectors and along the pavement to almost anywhere. Are they running from " Reality " ? Running gives endorphins which so called numbs your pain and allows one to sleep better. What if people run only when they have many things to worry from, will there be more than what I'll expect to see in the park everyday?
I thought of getting an job at an engineering firm but the contracts are mostly out for people who are willing to commit a minimum of 1 year which leaves me out to only the retail and F&B jobs which are of no relation to my successful future. What are the chances in life to climb the ladder and earn $10k a month at a young age of 30?
Have I really moved on after not seeing nor contacting her too? My answer will be I don't know. I can't stop thinking and worrying what is going to happen during graduation ceremony in May @Ngee Ann Poly... Will we meet face to face with our graduation gowns and stare awkwardly at each other with our rolled certificate and friends around us? OR am I just imagining too much because there will be too many people around for me to chance upon such a korean drama episode.
