Time has passed by each day miraculously quickly while I was serving back my 3 months owed of National Service. I was also taking a long 2 weeks leave before my de-kit day and here I am, a few hours away from my first day in the job at Micron as a Process Integration Engineer. Also, being at 291 days after the break-up, has forced myself to grow into a different version of myself. I have been into a few "dates" with girls I used to hang out with in the past, and at the start, I was being very possessive as well because I believe I was seeking that validation from them as I have just suffered from a heartbreak, probably the first proper heartbreak. But this time, I have learnt many lessons from these experiences, it is always better to keep a distance between the guy and girl, such that there is a mystery for each other to find out about each other. Also, to take note to not let myself be so easily succumb to temptations and greed.
These few days has been the "hardest" for the longest time since April to be exact because of the numerous times I have seen her in my Instagram stories. Where she attended the convocation for the NBS hall friends, while at the same time Javin is there as well with a balloon which seems very much like what Priscila will buy for her partner. I felt no anger, just a bit of a disappointment as she could have been the one to take many pictures with at my convocation.. We were a hall 11 couple, where we have shared treasured memories in various spots in school and hall. Yun Nan Garden, Hall 11 entrance, NBS xiao long bao area... these were the few locations that I wanted to take pictures with you for my convocation but for now.. it is better for me to not see you for the time being. This is so that both of us can properly forget about the insecurity and desperate version of me when you decided that 13th October will be the day of the break up. There is probably still a little piece of me that wish all of this is a dream and that, things will just be the way it was when we were still happily in our honeymoon period. I don't need the attention from other girls to feel happy, and you know it as well otherwise I will have been out with many other girls while we were still in the relationship together.
In another 2 months and 13 days, will be the full 1 year that we have separated from each other's life... And I guess it is truly heartbreaking that something could have been made into fireworks, was in fact just fireflies that are only made to survive and look pretty in the night, but has a short lifespan that only can survive until night ends. Or maybe we were just couples that met at the right time when we needed someone to accompany for the duration of our university life but not the right person and hence we parted ways when you have found that other half you may have wanted to have. I guess instead of all words for this entry, I shall include a happy and cute picture of you. I wish the both of us happiness in whatever the outcome of our relationship shall be..
