1 Year 136 Days - End of February

 Well, time sure do fly by quickly. It is already the ending of February 2023 and nearly 1.5 years since we broke up; 7 months into my first job earning the dough. If I do remember correctly, your last day in university should be around early May. Since that was the day of my final year presentation, which is intentionally allocated to be after all the Final papers. Means, 2 more months till you graduate from NTU like I did, 1 year go. Though, we obviously didn't interacted at all, but I'll still wish the best in finding your first job.

Felt like picking up bouldering as a sport now because I haven't exactly find an interest in a sport that I can do alone as an individual. Though I still suck at it though I've tried for bouldering for 4 times now. Got myself a cute chalk bag to make myself look aesthetic instead of having to carrying around a zip-lock bag and hiding it from other climbers from them to judge me. Today is just going to be a short post because I am bored at home during the weekend therefore, just decided to throw a little update of my life. Work has been rather exhausting these days and low morale in the team is spreading because of the recent retrenchment. Just surviving on the monthly moo-lah that they'll be paying us, but OT everyday for an hour or two, might not be the best I'll say, it can be quite tiring and also it stopped me from going to the gym because I wouldn't want to reach home too late as well..

*edited on 4 March 2023

Well, from your linkedin profile, it seems that you have already started your full time job in Jan 2023. That is interesting, so you didn't take a gap semester for your internship and just move on to work almost immediately. No wonder, you have never appeared in your ACBS friends instagram stories.

Day 1 Year + 112 days (2 Feb 2023)

    It is your 23rd birthday today, I wished you on 3:45pm during one of my reservist mall patrol duties. Currently, it is 11:27pm of 2/2/2023 but you have yet to acknowledge nor reply my message to you. While, I am currently just sipping on my cold beer as today has been a rather tiring walking day for me and finally will have a day off from mall patrol.. Well, no doubt about my feelings is that I still do care for you, though I somewhat have anticipated for your reply, but the excitement of receiving your message has died down a lot as compared to how it was before.

    As much as I truly do hope that we can still be friends with memories in the future, but I guess if you have no intention of being friends with me anymore, I will not pursue for it as well because we obviously do not benefit from each other in any way since we are living in opposite sides of Singapore, as well as our line of work will never interfere with each other. 

    Oh wells, good night little one.. i miss you, obviously.

Day: 1 year + 104 days

        It has been rather long time since we have last contacted, but you did wished me a happy birthday on the 26th of November. I felt that I was pleasant that day as you were the only one that wished me in 2022. I procrastinated on this blog post because I was too lazy to type what I am feeling but since today is the first day of my first reservist cycle, I decided to take some time out to write my feelings and reflections. 

        On the 31st of January 2023, will be the end of my 6 month probation with Micron as a fresh graduate hire. Though we are facing a downtime in US market where 10% of the workforce in Micron will be cut, I truly do hope that I can get through this. Time in Micron has truly been very fast as I tend to just toh at home after work and the weekends has just been me complaining about being bored at home and end up going to places where I had in my bucket list to go with you, Priscila, but this time with my brother or dad. We also go on walks to Joo Koon Decathlon and Singapore Discovery Centre to just spend time out of the house during the weekend. I have also seen other ladies in Micron that are potentially good partners but of course, they are already attached so I did not pursue them, while I try to keep them as colleagues or friends if possible. I'm definitely not interested in destroying one's relationship just to satisfy my own needs. 

        Well, looking at your Instagram reel on the 1st of January, I also have a rough idea that you are with the new boyfriend. However, I still felt that he is in fact a downgrade because I felt that he has nothing better than me. If anything, he is just doing anything replicated of me, but he lacks the humor that I probably have given to you during the 3years of university life and he only grabbed the opportunity when it was the lowest point of our relationship. I won't blame your choice as all I felt was naivety to pick someone else when you are in a relationship and from over a trivial matter that should have already been resolved. Oh well, I definitely still look forward to the day that we can make contact and have a nice cup of coffee to catch up on our days and experience on a happy day.

See you again when I have something on my mind to write about! :)