Day 66 : 2nd term

Second term

Back to the beginning to where we have left off from our 2 weeks break, studying and projects are back to haunt us once again. Holidays goes by at the speed of light and it seems like I'm going through a never ending holiday when we have the longer break, usually 2 months or 7 weeks. Received my common test results on Monday, got back my ESD 2 and ICONT papers. Came to realise I am on spar with another classmate for ESD, being first, but only scoring 62 marks for the test. Also I'm top for ICONT, scoring at 91 marks but I could do better because I have some careless mistakes here and there that could bring me up to 95 marks if I have noticed them. I'm kinda disappointed with my results despite being the top in my class. That is because the other class which I already have believed that they are the " smarter " kids have people scoring full marks and many 90 over marks too! Even some that I didn't expect them to be such hardworking manage to give me a shock after hearing about their results. I really hope my class will buck up and not fall behind because this is going to be burdensome as I can't find the perfect match for a project group. Also, I feel like I have to bail out of the basic ESD 2 group I'm assigned to. I can't work with LSK nor Hor Chet, despite them being my classmate for the past 2 years, they aren't compatible to do project works with me. The both of them don't voice out their opinions on a certain thing and hence always going with what others might think is right and end up having to rush at the last moment because all the calculations or specification were wrong. I really wished I could be in Wei Zhi's group for such projects.. He always manages to get perfection in project because his father is a boss of an engineer firm so he definitely will be able to get some assistance here and there... Well, I guess it just isn't my luck since I'm posted to a class with not much potential in studying.. Surprisingly, we're the quieter class which appears to be the more "nerdier" class at first look, but our results don't show much from it.

It has also been exactly a month now, since we last spoke and seen one another... 29th may 2016 is the date we last interact, and I still sometimes look back at our pictures as well as daydream as I listen to love songs while looking at my laptop wallpaper of us. Many says " Some things that aren't meant to be, will never stay, you just have to move on. " Easier said than done I thought to myself. We forge this friendship that took many tedious hard work, blood and sweat to get us as close to sharing one another's secrets that we probably don't even tell some of our friends.... Thinking it all through, I still don't know if I am the one in the wrong.. I just hope something comes down and guide me to the light to where I should be and what to do to make things better for us.

Day 57 : 2nd week of term break~

Break

I apparently haven't been updating things according as they come. Where should I start? Well, this term break is actually quite boring. What I initially wanted to do was to drink with a couple of friends and sing karaoke but... I guess we couldn't find time and the mood to ask one another out, maybe because we are all guys. Haha! Hmmm, well back to playing a Maplestory private server, named AriesMS. Doing everything all over again like I was a kid back then. Grinding and putting lots of effort into the game, trying to earn as much in game currency and spending it to improve my character. Believe me, I wasn't even looking forward to each day. The holiday just comes to me as a routine that I will switch on my laptop and play MapleStory, talking to people online and just playing. Listening to the same songs on Youtube and Spotify. 

Finally driving lessons are already at 3.04. Hopefully clearing 2 lessons every time as I go so I can clear all my lessons quicker as well as doing my TP test before my PDL ends in 25th August. Otherwise, it will be a hassle to go to post office to renew it for another $10 or $15. I can't remember the exact price but damn.. It is a total waste of money!! Circuit driving is super boring, today. I'll be learning parallel parking and hopefully circuit slope too. Though I have no idea why but I've done so many circuit slopes before this but they still want us to go according to schedule... Its total rubbish and I think they just want us to pay more through the long course of extra lessons.

Haven't get to hear or see you since 29 May, its close to a month now and I still can't reach out to you. Are friendship so brittle now? Just one mistake is all it takes to break and tarnish what we have created in the 2 years filled with memories of thrill, laughter, sadness as well as getting into trouble and... being in love with you. Feelings can only be subdued temporary by removing all photos I have with you but when we meet in the future, I'm pretty sure I will still have that same feeling I have for you. Too bad, I couldn't hold your hand once more and show you the world. 

Day 52 : Facial

Facial

Did facial at 1pm at the same place again, this time it took about 2 hours to get everything done because of the numerous oil bubbles and pimples around my cheeks and chin. It hurts like hell but luckily today's weather is pretty cooling hence I'm able to withstand the pain throughout. Did my teeth cleaning at Greenlife Dental yesterday and also did a new haircut. I like this new haircut because it gives me a fresher and mature look. Finally, I didn't keep the layered cut at the back of my head and change it to a slope, becoming more like a Secondary School student somehow... 

Well, have to get back to doing my TCM project once again... Couldn't get much things on the internet that I wouldn't lift totally. After all, there are so many terms specific phrases which I can't explain with my own words.. I hope they will be lenient in their marking. 

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how have you been? have you recovered from your cold? Is your holiday schedule still as packed as usual? [ I hope so ]  Have you and your father relationship been better? I hope things are going smooth for you, since it is probably a hectic year... 

Day 49 : Start of 2 weeks break

~Halfway there~

Cleared with common test, hence we're all halfway through semester one, also meaning I'm halfway to clearing all my study modules since I'm having internship next semester which I hope will go by as a breeze. Common test was pretty easy, I am quite confident for 3 out of 5 papers that I can score easy As but I will never know the results until when school reopens. Hopefully, I can make this semester count and give me a definite answer of being able to go to NTU for further studies after my 2 years of national service. Things are going quiet... Very quiet. I don't send much snaps to people, I only open people's snap story and look at what they are enjoying life during their breaks while I am at home, listening to repeated songs and playing video games that I usually get bored of in a month or so. 

Went basketball with Hao Xiang early afternoon, we weren't having high field goal percentage at the start but we made it very well at the mid point where we are making 3 shots in a row at different points of the court. However, I still couldn't make any 3 points, somehow I don't have enough power to push the ball up and forward, but I can still throw it straighter than my short distance 2 points. Didn't play any matches today because we have been out of the game for so many months so we decided that today, we shall just play random shooting just to get a feel of what we had in the past when we are warmed up. Wearing slippers and my basketball shoes really did make a difference which I initially thought wouldn't, I felt more cushion in my jump, hence being able to jump at a greater height with the same amount of energy put in my legs.

Watched Conjuring 2 with my family today as well, it is a 2hrs + long horror film which is based on a true paranormal activity which literally gave me goosebumps all over my body just by the imagination of what is going to happen next , especially with the anticipating sound effects which increase our heart rates. I got scared quite a few times too! That is pretty rare for me because I don't jump from scares as often as some of my friends. Haha! 

It has been probably exactly 2 weeks since we last spoke, we have never seen each other way more than just 2 weeks definitely. I hope you are doing fine though, I remembered seeing your snap story of you thanking Eunice for the medicine and I wanted to get you herbal tea in the morning but due to the heavy and the on and off from the rain, I didn't get it for you because I don't want to make it that I am going to do it on purpose. Afterall, we are never meant to be, even our friendship is crashing as we speak these words in our head. I hope we will never turn out to be " Strangers who know myself more than anyone else" . Hope to see you again before my National Service or when I POP. 

Day 41 : Traditional chinese medicine learning journey

TCM

It so difficult waking up at 6:30 am in the morning today, maybe because it is the Saturday. I guess it is a nice experience there doing some activities, however obviously playing more than making sure our posture is correct and what we are doing really helps us in our health. Did scraping and a Aurcular Therapy, more commonly understand as ear acupuncture. Only did one on the " Shen Men" which is said to help relieve headaches, migraine and insomnia. Probably why, I took a nap immediately after coming back home today. 

Did an Applied Thermo paper for practice today, can't really score above 80 if I were to keep referring to the answer keys at the bottom. Though the chapter 8 questions are easy, the questions on chapter 6 are totally wrecking my brain. Can't really put all my focus into doing my revision. I always tend to find things to do because I would procrastinate when I'm doing these revision at home. There is always a computer in front of me and I don't have a proper table and chair to study like what I can get from the libraries. Oh well, I just have to learn how to not procrastinate then. 

Hmmmm, suddenly I missed you, or should I say, the past you. Every smile and laughter with you is still vivid in my memories. Our trip in China, 九寨沟 and 黄龙 which we went hiking all the way to the top which I can't really remember if there is a taoism temple at the top of the mountain. How could just change at a snap of your fingers... I hope it isn't from the bad habits that I used to have that made you change this way.. You help me changed my bad ways and turned over a new leaf and now, without your directions. I'm as good as a lost duck in a swamp with no lead and no goals to learn and learn more about the outside world.

Day 40 : Preparation to go for war ( CT )

Preparations

Spending 3 days in a row this week in school to finish up whatever revision I hope to accomplish at the end of the day. Finally, I'm pretty confident with my concept in Applied Thermodynamics. I just have to recall on my formulas from the previous semester and I will be able to do it with more confidence and at a faster pace. Things are going a smoother pace than what it was before. The big bunch of guys shared their OIP China trip vlog with me and I can still remember everything I experience in the trip I went, which is half a year before theirs, during the winter season. The temperature range is about negative 3 to 10? The freezing nights is something I will never forget, having a faulty heater that doesn't keep us warm at night and always giving me a blocked nose the next morning. Everyone was having so much fun and promised to stay together even after the trip, but look at what has happened, we separated because we either didn't keep in contact or just some stupid idea of ignoring one another. It has been days since Yu Jun and I have interacted, not just in person, we don't even send snaps nor messages at all now. Even having you crossing my mind doesn't make me move an inch now, I find it absurd for you to change your character totally after expressing my feelings for you. Is this the real face of you, or was I just too oblivious as I was too attracted to what I thought was your perfect personality that I missed them out? Chasing you is like climbing a steep mountain in a certain time limit. I have to charge in like a bull but also be able to maintain my stamina through the feint existence of myself so that I can try to put myself into the middle, where you can see me. Well, maybe 1 year of tolerating my nuisance is more than enough for you to handle. That is why you chose to leave using this method of ignoring me so that I will automatically not reply you knowing it is hurting my pride and ego inside. I know you still snapchat and uses instagram direct messages to Aaron. I guess I'm just a side-bitch where I gets a part time job whenever you feel bored or requires someone to chip in money on birthday presents. Guess I have to live pretending to not know you in my dictionary anymore, that is if we continue this along with the cold replies I'm receiving constantly from you.