Preparations
Spending 3 days in a row this week in school to finish up whatever revision I hope to accomplish at the end of the day. Finally, I'm pretty confident with my concept in Applied Thermodynamics. I just have to recall on my formulas from the previous semester and I will be able to do it with more confidence and at a faster pace. Things are going a smoother pace than what it was before. The big bunch of guys shared their OIP China trip vlog with me and I can still remember everything I experience in the trip I went, which is half a year before theirs, during the winter season. The temperature range is about negative 3 to 10? The freezing nights is something I will never forget, having a faulty heater that doesn't keep us warm at night and always giving me a blocked nose the next morning. Everyone was having so much fun and promised to stay together even after the trip, but look at what has happened, we separated because we either didn't keep in contact or just some stupid idea of ignoring one another. It has been days since Yu Jun and I have interacted, not just in person, we don't even send snaps nor messages at all now. Even having you crossing my mind doesn't make me move an inch now, I find it absurd for you to change your character totally after expressing my feelings for you. Is this the real face of you, or was I just too oblivious as I was too attracted to what I thought was your perfect personality that I missed them out? Chasing you is like climbing a steep mountain in a certain time limit. I have to charge in like a bull but also be able to maintain my stamina through the feint existence of myself so that I can try to put myself into the middle, where you can see me. Well, maybe 1 year of tolerating my nuisance is more than enough for you to handle. That is why you chose to leave using this method of ignoring me so that I will automatically not reply you knowing it is hurting my pride and ego inside. I know you still snapchat and uses instagram direct messages to Aaron. I guess I'm just a side-bitch where I gets a part time job whenever you feel bored or requires someone to chip in money on birthday presents. Guess I have to live pretending to not know you in my dictionary anymore, that is if we continue this along with the cold replies I'm receiving constantly from you.
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