Just another Saturday

Peace & quiet

Well, today is another Saturday where I spend most of my time staring at the computer wallpaper, listening songs and watching Korean dramas. I think I should be able to cope with not thinking about you 24/7. I somehow managed to distract myself as well as to not keep switching on Telegram to see if you were using your phone and why you weren't opening my Snapchats. I guess as time goes by and constant reminder to myself to not chase after you might just be workable. I seem to NEVER be able to get a photo with you since the last time we had was... your 19th birthday. We have been going out together but we usually won't have a picture to keep till the end of the day. I hope we can have at least a photo whenever we go out as the both of us, it will be part of my collection where I might smiled upon the look of them when I've graduated from Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Instead of only the ones we had in China and a few little ones which we never really had fun together. Saturday and Sundays are always your busy days, with the addition of our driving lessons now, it will be even difficult for us to go out too. Juggling studies, friends, temple services, as well as driving lessons will be a difficult task. So, maybe its fortunate that we aren't together. I might not be ready for one as well, things are getting more complicated to cope all together at once, definitely one must be pushed back and I believe that even if we are fated to be together, we will meet again, when we are older and ready to face the world. :) So, I'm not even worried bout being in a relationship or not, in fact, its just a status that people just overlook. To me, even we are not tagged a couple, but we are still going out together, I will still be happy and might even regard it a date that we have. Though, obviously it may just be a one sided love, but I'm ready to make that heart flutter one day, but not betraying myself which I've been doing the past months just to chase her. I hope you will be keeping a lookout for my blog post, because there might be words I want to speak to you but don't get a chance to. Steamboat for dinner with family later~ shabu shabu and all sorts of pork later on. HAHA! I need to keep a lookout for my weight too, seems like I'm getting fatter.. but I've no idea, I just want to grow to 175cm at least... So, I might just change her mind(?).