Day 170 : 2 Sighs

2 Sighs

What seems like a good idea before doesn't seem to go as what I've expected and planned for. Should I take a step back and consider running back to the split roads where I'm forced to choose between the two routes. Despite numerous attempts to get our conversation to be longer and also more interesting, your replies are always a force closure by replying only what I asked and using no more than three words like " Haha yea " , " Nope " and " So exp , LOL ". I'm really disturbed by this because the texts and topics I talked to you about can always be extended and whats more intriguing is that the 3 word replies can take you up NO LESS than 24 hours. I have to wait exactly and mostly more than a day for just a short reply which pretty much shows how much you want to speak to me. Just, bye will probably be a better reply instead. I really am infuriated by such replies, and I believe you knew it all along. So instead of beating around the bush, why can't you just talk to me on the phone or at least give me a proper sign that you don't want and don't need me to be around because I'm of no more use to you after not showering you with all the allowances I have. I would have probably gotten you the Chanel perfume you wanted but I assume I'm lucky for not gifting it too early since the few months of not being around you can make you change inside out. According to such statistic, we will never still be together when I'm serving my 2 years of National Service and you will probably be looking to spend time with another guy you meet in the University you study in. 

Why must you crush my wish and trust and yet feeling not a single bit of bitterness for forsaking our friendship(?). Have the time spent together meant nothing at all to you but just a shadow that accompanies you? *scratching my head* Should I continue trying to talk to you? I mean... what if its all just me and I'm just stubbornly standing, waiting for a day to come when you finally can have the eye contact like we used to have.