The Ending of 2016
Here's to the ending of year 2016. It has been a long and tiresome journey and I hope you readers out there wouldn't feel the same as me. Having to shut off a friendship and affection for a person whom I believe I am willing to sacrifice my whole to her, not being able to make new female friends (god knows why), losing contacts with polytechnic friends due to the change in environment and topic ran out because the things we are doing aren't the same like the lecture books we dug ourselves into when the examinations are around the corner. Things ended with a twist in year 2016 for me. Everything seems to look fine during January, where I am able to control all my feelings for her, studies doing well to keep myself occupied. Being able to spend more time talking with my family, friends and even gaming to reduce the stress levels built up from studies. August, claiming my driver's license, though passing it only on the second try, but at least I've made it. The back flow in my luck comes around the October period, where things are starting to get dry and everything seems to be out of place and I'm losing focus and the motivation to push myself further.
Questions that are always in my mind are : Am I an optimistic person? Am I being too hopeful? Should I continue being "Mr Nice Guy" or should I shift to being who I used to be, "Mr Quiet"? Have Yu Jun really change me into something better? What will my aim be even if I get to be with her? Will we ever last? What will graduation day be like? Will we take a picture to commemorate the last day we will ever be smiling for the camera? Or are we going to be strangers even when we met face to face in public? Have you ever thought of me? Do you...recognize me?
I thought I did my best to satisfy what you are seeking for in a male friend, a partner, someone who will look up to. However, it seems that you are looking at Aaron Fong these days. He told me you stop trying to take your driving license after you've failed once just because he told you not to. Yes, I did ask questions about you from Aaron, though to me, he isn't someone whose words can be trusted but I have no choice. I don't think Eunice nor Christel will help me in this because of what happen between us, they will definitely be keeping every information about you a secret from me. Which is why, I was hoping you wrote back to me, showing that you are still willing to accept me interfering your life once again.
Questions that are always in my mind are : Am I an optimistic person? Am I being too hopeful? Should I continue being "Mr Nice Guy" or should I shift to being who I used to be, "Mr Quiet"? Have Yu Jun really change me into something better? What will my aim be even if I get to be with her? Will we ever last? What will graduation day be like? Will we take a picture to commemorate the last day we will ever be smiling for the camera? Or are we going to be strangers even when we met face to face in public? Have you ever thought of me? Do you...recognize me?
I thought I did my best to satisfy what you are seeking for in a male friend, a partner, someone who will look up to. However, it seems that you are looking at Aaron Fong these days. He told me you stop trying to take your driving license after you've failed once just because he told you not to. Yes, I did ask questions about you from Aaron, though to me, he isn't someone whose words can be trusted but I have no choice. I don't think Eunice nor Christel will help me in this because of what happen between us, they will definitely be keeping every information about you a secret from me. Which is why, I was hoping you wrote back to me, showing that you are still willing to accept me interfering your life once again.
Having to lost my earpiece which I've only got from the iphone 7+ box in a month or so, having to brace myself through the 2 hours journey back and forth to work as well as during work. I even read a book for the first time and it was a thick ass book with 500 over pages which only lasted 4 days or so.
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