So, yesterday night I was reflecting on what I should do and I was thinking, why not start on a journey of answering these questions below early, and do it every end of the week to re-evaluate my own feelings for her. Thing is, that I myself don't know if I really love her or is it just because I don't want to waste the months and years that I have spent with her. Sometimes, it hurts whenever I think about it because I don't know if I really have loved her properly before though my brain keeps telling me that I really loved her and really want the best for her when she is with me. But have I really did the right thing, such as actions and proper attitude that I have given to her to see a promising future with me?
The questions below are from 2 posts ago but I will be using these questions for that time being..
1. What is it that I really love about her? Is it just because of wasted time, or is it really true that I love her from the bottom of my heart.
2. Am I prepared to face the reality that even if someday, I have changed and she accepted me but if I were to be short-tempered at one point of time, she may still bring up about this past, and history will repeat itself?
3. She can also reject me like any other guys that can come chasing for her. Like she can reject to any opportunity that I set up for, a lunch/exercise/movie date. She has the right to say No and I have no choice but to live with it.
4. Since there is no expiry date to how things can go, there can also be a possibility that I have to take months, years or may not even chase her back while seeing her go with another man.
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