Time just flew by so quickly, it has already been a year since I was your boyfriend, things are starting to feel much calmer than before. Though there are still days where I will still think of how you are doing, wanting to find out if you're still single and what not, I held myself back to not contact you for the time being even though I don't dislike or hate you in any way.
Work has been stressful since I have to learn to juggle both training as well as work because the tool that I was assigned to, SEM, is definitely not simple but unfortunately they have always never allocated a backup team member for this equipment. Hence, even while Micron has mass hired so many new hires into the department, I am still doing this equipment alone and everyone else just has the impression that it is a simple task just because they haven't been into this specific job role itself. The learning of this equipment is easy, but the social skills, the inter-relation skillset that I will need to speak to my technicians, engineers, senior engineers, vendors and sometimes even managers that are from another department to explain the problems that I will face as well as to give alternative solutions to their problem statement. 2 months and a half into this job, I can definitely feel the stress slowly piling up as the training phase is over and more expectations from bosses and senior engineers are slowly pouring in. The trainings provided are also irrelevant to me as a tool owner as they are more targeted towards process owners. I have also not been meeting my friends for a while now, because everyone is just so busy with work. But I believe that once you have started working, the whole planning of saving money becomes so much more complicated. You'll look at how much you will spend and save in the month that you will do minimally, because I try my best to minimize my spending in the first month but I have also spend $1k in just the basic stuff of buying some nice food, maybe a couple of drinks with a friend in the month. This is followed by the mountain of monthly payment to insurance as well as investment that I will have to put in every month. Have also made some calculations on how much money I will need to earn just to be able to afford a first hand car with a loan. It feels kind of impossible at this current century, such that car with COE is about 150-200k. Just the a 40% downpayment is going to make me broke immediately. Assuming 200k with 40% downpayment is already 80k cash which I don't have. and the next 60% is on bank loan with an interest of >3%. Just by looking at the downpayment itself, I will rather just be taking a grab to and fro from work. But oh well whatever, too early to make these spending decisions.
Well, back to the topic. I do hope that we will keep in touch next time when we are more matured and definitely be able to smile and have a good dinner together instead of having tensed up moments of the past. Our time together was a memorable one at least for me, it has caused me pain but I'll say if I didn't loved you and got together with you from the start, I will have regretted even more.
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