Day 25 : Farewell

Farewell

Since I wasn't even able to ask you for a clear statement if it is a yes or a no. I guess I had enough of the game that we're playing. I was just another confused player who thought he had the chance to make things different, changing all of myself to be that one who can impress you. Now, you just say "Im bored of it" and that is where you just left me hanging by the thread. But definitely, you have taught me many things, the vulgarities I use often in the past few years has been kept to a minimum where I don't even use it at all now. I've learnt to look things at a brighter side so things will not be so dim and the road to success wouldn't be so narrow and shaded. I have too, learn that I must stop at some point of time, to enjoy the nature and scenery which we may have passed by everyday without realizing. The clumsiness in me just to make you laugh will come to an end because I guess there isn't a point to destroy myself over and over again, but to face reality. Well, I didn't want to say this, but were you toying with my feelings back then? Knowing that I have some kind of feelings for you, you made used of me in contributing to birthday presents and doing things at a snap of a finger for you? This is one question that I don't have the confidence to say " No, she wasn't just all pitying me, hence spending time going out on dates with me." So.. I'm saying goodbye here because this blog might be the only thing I will speak of you in the future... Thank you for all these life lessons... and I hope we will meet once again in our point of lives at a different approach. Be well and take good care of yourself... If you have thought about having me as someone who will be in the future as your best guy friend, then yeah..you can still ask me out and we can still talk for hours without feeling restless like how we were in our East Coast Park date.

29 November 2015 ( Your 19th birthday )