Day 31 : Stress

Stressed

It definitely feels weird for not waking up to your snapchats and waiting for a " Good morning " snapchat from you. Our snap streak was broken, a week ago(?) at 197 snap streaks. That's more than half a year! Hahaha I still remember that everyday after school, I will always share stories of what happen in class or outside class to you. But now, these stories are just stories on a piece of waste paper. We don't snap any pictures nor speak in real life. I saw Christel on Monday, and my natural reaction was to look for you, but realizing it doesn't make a point if I'm always the one initiating. It just shows that I'm getting taken advantage of, only visible when needed something I can provide. Probably I'll keep snapchat just to browse through stories and playing around the filters.. Though I usually use them to entertain you when we are at a boring conversation. Things are still going great here, without you, though my focus is definitely not as strong and my desire to score well isn't really there because you always seem to motivate me to become the best of myself. However, now I see you still #1 BFF snapchat with Aaron and even use Instagram direct messages as a different platform for messaging. Nevermind, afterall I am just a side-kick, a ball that is thrown back and forth only to come by when needed to fill up the space and thrown aside practically 90% of the time. These are observations I realized only when I step out of the circle of confusion when I am deeply in love with you. I am mesmerized by all the clumsy acts of yours. Oh, and if you didn't know why I didn't reply your latest snap is because you seem ignorant about our friendship. Still asking what we talked about and what happened between us. Ahhh... But I guess its alright now, have to forget them so I won't be bothered bout it. The usual, hope you stay healthy and smile the brightest everyday of your life.