Day 1 of Priscila broke up with me

 

Day 1 (21^st Oct)

1 day after closure, well in just less than 24hrs, I felt so much pain, disappointment as well as emptiness all in 1 day. Despite being busy since morning when I have equipment assessment test in the morning at 930am and only come back to hall at 3pm. The feeling of emptiness overwhelmed me as the quietness fills the room. Every day, without fail, we meet for lunch/dinner as well as our late-night walks to giant or just around hall for at least 1 hour. Things that I have took granted for, always felt it was a chore to go out and walk but now it becomes a habit such that I casually look forward to every 11pm or later where we would possibly go on walks and enjoy the quiet breeze in hall. Now, I cannot enjoy the quietness in hall anymore as the breeze becomes a catalyst for making me tear up when I remember bout how it was before we officially got together in the first place. As hot and humid the weather may be, we would meet at the car gantry or bus stop without fail and talk bout our day for hours.. even sneaking a few pecks of kisses and hugs during the session. I thought you were very busy with project and didn’t ask much bout how you were, maybe that’s why you felt unloved. I just thought of not speaking about the workload because it may come across as another stressful thought. I should have just stopped and kissed you on the spot, kissing is probably something we have not done for so long too. Though its like that, I actually am shocked when you asked to break up last Wednesday (13 Oct) when I thought our relationship was rather healthy. It also because that we didn’t quarrel for at least 1 month and pretty much nothing would’ve triggered to you ending on our relationship. So, I guess it was an accumulated problems in our relationship that has brought it to the end of our relationship. Well, I have yet to move on from our relationship. As much as I will like to move on, I still cant let go of us… Maybe in time to come, we may find our significant other OR maybe we may just get back together after gaining more wisdom. Though, I quite uncertain about how we will be like, since things will be quite awkward as friends even.. how will we even move forward such that I can convince you to try for another relationship. Whatever it is, I have no control over the future and I shall just move on and take a step forward into the future without you for now.. It’s a fracture in my heart, but I hope you do know that I really loved you, very much. This was the place we dated and last picture we had together as a couple.. I'm sorry Priscila for not being enough and practically oblivious of the subtle hints that you probably have given me along the way...