To be honest, I don't know if I should continue hoping that we will get back together. It all seem like I am holding on to a thread that was already cut loose.. I'm not sure if you have been thinking about me while we have not been texting at all since Thursday morning. Is there really nothing that we can talk through to salvage this relationship? As time goes on and distance widens, I am actually more than just afraid that we will drift apart further than friends. There is in fact, a high possibility of us being total strangers after this. I have to endure until 1st December before I can make a move, and I am not even sure if that will allow us to discuss if we can get another chance back together. What if I am just delusional such that only I am looking forward for us to patch back together while you are busy moving on and actually trying to live your life without me in your life. If you can live your life in peace, without me for 2 months +, I'm pretty sure you will also be used to the routine that you have set for yourself along those days when I wasn't around... I still want to try and get you back, knowing that I have a very slim chance of doing so, but I really want to give it another shot. Just that sometimes, I feel like I want to text you at random times of the day, just to check in on you. Today, I even thought of texting your sister to check in on you as well as a possibility if she will help me when the time comes that I will come and chase you back to get you back by my side. I know that I am probably not worth it back then, but I feel like I am able to achieve the best qualities of myself by changing my temper as well as making sure that I should actually show love more physically than through the buying of gifts or food. Here is a picture of us going to the Singapore quarry and our little kiss photo. I don't want any of this to end... Will we actually have to move on without each other in our lives? What if I got rejected after valentines day? Do I still try again? I really have no plans after that, if I fail.. I really will have no idea how it will be like to just move on like nothing happened... like we have never even existed in each other lives. I know that your decision should be respected and I should not forcefully ask for a patch back as well.. but isn't the break up a little too sudden for me to handle? We haven't quarreled for very long, and in fact like we have not quarreled into something very big these days and I actually thought we would go all the way.. I really hope that you will miss me through the days that we do not text.. and hopefully things will be better after this... such that, you still have feelings for me and wouldn't mind giving it another try for our relationship to restart.
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