Day 17: Exams week is coming but I'm still missing you

 Well, it is a week to a full month from the way we separated.. and well, day 17 from the first day of the revival of this blog. I still missed you very much, I've asked to watched running man together later tonight at 11pm+, hopefully we can somewhat chat and reminisce the past as much as I wanted it to be. I have also been looking at flowers that I can buy at an affordable price and self collection which I intend to confess my love to you once again after the exams, maybe when you started your intern, hopefully WFH so I can give the flowers to you during your break time and I can somehow speak to you and give you butterflies all over again. The picture below was the last hike that we had together, which was at bukit timah railway. It was a very quick one due to time constraint as you have to go back home in the rather early afternoon like 2-3pm and that also due to the bad weather. In fact, we have many beautiful pictures together in just that short period of time. Many smiles, many sweat definitely... but thats when I realised we did not actually hold our hands nor kissed very much ever since before that day... Was it really so way back that your feelings for me had been already bad and that I have just been so oblivious all these while.. These days, I have been having dreams of our future, our past as well as the good memories that us when we were exploring places, eating good food. Dreams that we could actually go on chalets/staycation /overseas trips together as a couple. The first place that I will probably go with you is Malaysia at least it is near and cheap. Easy to communicate too, next is probably Taiwan? Since you have went there before and it should be easier to fix the itenary. Next is probably the near countries like bangkok and indonesia(Bali) where we can rent a villa so we can swim together during our relaxing days at the beach or the pool that the villa should have. 

I miss your smile, the hugs that we used to have for each other. I want to give you hugs from the front, from the back, kisses all over your face and say that I love you so so much... I hope I won't be too late in December then. I really just want to give you the space that you have requested for, that is why I haven't been trying so hard to push for the things that I really wanted to do for you and with you. I just wished that things will turn out better later into the year... I really do see us becoming a stronger couple together out of all these because I know my flaws and am really trying my best to fix all these problems now. I will do my best to gain some wisdom along the days that I am away from you, and grow into a better man.. I miss you so much baby..  

Edit:

Manage to watch running man together from 11:45pm to 12:30am. Though it is a short 45mins, well I still appreciate the time that can be spent together at least like how it was before. Really happy to see you being able to speak to me, though it feels a little awkward for you, I can feel it but, I still love you very much and miss these small opportunities that can allow me to be closer to you. I've also tried to ask if we can study together in RR during the revision weeks but you said see how, I guess it is still a little awkward for you? Maybe you won't ask me to study together so I believe I will have to create these opportunities myself and since your intern starts on 6 Dec, maybe I'll have to check in if it is WFH or go office around 5 Dec so I can roughly make a decision on the buying of flowers.. Well, hopefully we can get back together bah :)