Well, the lonely feeling in hall hits me once again today at 8+pm. Asked Priscila to chit chat / walk but by the time she replies that she is doing practice on her past year paper, I was already roaming around North Hill area by myself for at least 20 over mins. I then had the intention to walk to Yun Nan Garden by myself since the weather decently good enough for me to walk long distance. But end up, I just keep going to different places, but firstly was the SRC as it somehow reminded me how happy things was in camp, where everyone was playing games, cheers and whatsoever so I end up walked aimlessly towards that direction and see many people playing soccer, basketball and even foreigners running or doing yoga around that area. I was expecting it to be dead quiet since it is the final study week for most of us but I guess not really for the foreigners or people living in NTU. Well, I end up walking to places where I got reminded of Pris as I walk down hall 6 to pioneer hall. It took me about nearly half an hour for the whole journey as I'm mildly perspiring already so I decided not to continue on my journey to Yun Nan Garden and just walk back to hall so I can shower and just settle down on some anime or revision which I think I will just be watching anime and revise tomorrow again because firstly, it is an open book test and that I have done all the past year papers so I feel more confidence for the paper tomorrow and the one on Wednesday. I wish I could've more time spent with you today. Though lunch was great, dinner without you once again feel like something was amiss. Though you don't really speak much in a group context, your significance in the group is prominent to me. Maybe I am just too into you such that I will just look out for you. Ate too much ban mian today, felt like I am getting fatter instead of slimming down HAHAHA but whatever ba. Need to control food and exercise is crazy hard now.. Maybe I lack the motivation to really go all out diet and just starve. Doubt I will be seeing you anytime soon, since you say maybe will join for tmr dinner and wed lunch/dinner but wed lunch i will be having my presentation/CA then dinner i probably go home also. I doubt I will be eating in school. Until next week (week 14) when I probably will try to stay in hall for a longer period of time to focus in my studying for the finals. Probably stay from Sunday night - Thursday night before going back? Hmmm, to be honest, I don't know if we will really get back together in the future. It feels so bleak because it seems like you are so living your life as per normal, like we did not even got together in the first place.. I was expecting more emotions though that day you cried after intiating the break up. Mehh, we shall see how things goes ba... seems like I can only let time do its job and see if its move on or patch back.. well, I miss you baby girl.
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