Day 35 : Finished first paper

Well... Its our "second anniversary", today... How I wish I could be able to say that to you today, saying how much I love you and a Happy 2nd anniversary... But well.. No idea how far we can go for now.. You have already opened your doors to others, while I am still at base 1 where I am still clueless as to where to go beside knowing that I really want you back... I miss you, I miss the hugs, the kisses, the small chats we have at night, the time we really smile and laugh at the slightest things. We really enjoyed the company of one another. And though it seems like you have already moved on entirely where you really don't need me, I'm not sure if I am ready to move on just like you did. I just hope for a few chances to go out with you, to show how much I really care and love you, for you to know and hopefully giving me another chance at salvaging our relationship. Today, after the paper, I have waited for 3 hours but still no reply because you have another paper, C Law, tomorrow.. So, I guess I should be patient and just wait for an answer when you are free.. Though I know you have been on and off on your telegram, hopefully asking and answering questions from your friends... Though you said you have no friends in your class but I really hope that you are just asking questions and not... flirting with other guys yea... The guy that was studying in your room, you said to let nature take its own course when I asked if you have feelings for him. You said that and also you said that you have not thought about it. To be honest, I was very depressed when I heard that, knowing that you have moved on so quickly and its only a month from the initiated break up.. when I thought you should be the one being very sentimental.. 

But you also said if you can choose not to reply when I asked bout the nature taking its course for the both of us.. So, sometimes I am really confused, like I really don't know if I have a chance or not. I mean, its not like its going to affect my decision of chasing you. Its just more like if I have no chance at all, I thought it will be better for me to just step back and let the other guy chase you while I sob for a few months or so then I will get over it... But I really don't know... I want to hug you, and say how much regrets I have been feeling and sorry for taking you for granted all these time... But I guess, for the time being, we shall see how things goes... no idea how it will turn out to be honest.